Ok this is a VERY obscene post and i do NOT recomend some people to read it . Honestly I know you guys know that I watch porn , and blah blah blah doing my "happy time" and well I always have this strange feeling. When I fantasize about a girl which I dont know its fine with me and i felt alright but if i fantasize about my friends (they're girls btw im not gay) I FELT LIKE SHOOTING MYSELF IN THE HEAD! I MEAN SHIT! THEY'RE SO GOOD TO ME THEY TALK TO ME AND YET I THINK ABOUT THESE THINGS HOLY SHIT!! I felt like an asshole! And yesterday that Debra and Di Wern and Wuan Yi ah...walao slapping each others ass and boobs make my nose bleed! And that Di Wern was like...JUICY JUICY!! OH MY GOD WHAT THE FUCK BAR BE QUE! I really cannot study liao! and the worst of all i accidentally fantasize during that moment ARGH! IM TURNING INSANE!!

*for those of you who dosnt know what fantasizing is its you dreaming about having sex with a spesific person*

now you guys know my weakness....